Amazing has a sensitive personality and she gets uncomfortable easy when around chaos or when life is too busy, forever she was using my magical milk of oxytocin and digestive goodness to ease her every discomfort. I was always there for her. She has proven to be very self aware, potty trained at 19 months, speaking all kinds of words, telling stories and using her imagination very very well by 2 1/2. I knew she would never choose to wean on her own, its too great! Who doesn't have an addiction they don't want to give up? Especially, when this one helps her health, tremendously, emotionally, physically, and spiritually!!! Its the best thing we will have to give up to grow up!
Now I didn't know how to go about this so I asked, I read, I meditated deeply and this is my weaning story!
Knowing that I needed to wean my child for my sake, because I need more time to myself without the pull of dependency from Mazi, she didn't want her milk to get too far away, she hated to be away from me. To this day we haven't been apart for more than 5 hours! When I did have to leave, the moment she saw me walk in the door, ALL she wanted was milk, milk, milk!!! With a whine attached to it!
I talked with her about it each day for about two weeks, I got out a calendar and drew a fancy picture of some ta-tas with a big squiggly circle around them in bright red and explained to her that this was the day my milk would be all gone.
We discussed babies and big kids and why they are different, we showed her how she has teeth to eat, legs to walk and run, she is strong, she talks, she plays and she no longer needs her Mamas milk. We pointed out children at the park and helpless babies whenever we came in contact with them. Mazi loves attention and comforting so I always explained that we can still always cuddle, I will always hold her and give her attention, she will still get all of Mommy but we kept telling her how big she is and that she is drinking Mama's milk all gone. She can speak so well that she repeated this over and over to her Daddy and I. We both knew she was understanding it and approving it. She would ask me everyday, "Is it all gone?" When I said "not yet" she would light up. I would remind her on the calendar of when it will be gone. Finally, we told her that big girls get to do great things like take care of a kitty all by themselves...she really wants a kitty, and when we run into a kitten we will get one for her!
My anticipation for the upcoming day was intense. I was nervous. We never let Mazi cry herself to sleep or ignore her cries for any reason and knowing this was her favorite thing on the planet so far, I didn't know what to expect!! Oh, and Amazing Grace is perfectly emotional, she feels all her emotions very well and she's incredible empathetic.
The last day we will ever share the moment of her taking in my milk was positive and full of fun! We spent the day together as a family bringing up often that this is the last day for Mama's milk and that she is growing up. We went to the park, we got her a toy, we had lunch together, we snuggled, lit candles and played fun games til night. JJ put her to bed and the next morning was a new day!
I kept snacks and yummy beverages around all day, everyday, smoothies, juices, and almond butter milk shakes...yum!
It was about 3 days where she didn't want to snuggle much. When I picked her up she tried to get away...she never does that to me! Finally, after day three I noticed that she became almost a different kid, instantly matured!
She talks about how she is taking care of her babies and she's a big girl. She wants to walk more and hold my hand, sometimes she asks to not hold my hand but to just stay by me. It kills me to see this maturity at the same time that it excites me to see her develop into her own person with her own ideas! She wants to dress herself now, and pick her shoes, she tells me what she wants to eat, even if I only offer what I planned earlier. She is her own Amazing Grace!
All in all I was soooooo impressed with the outcome, it was totally the right move to make. We have both evolved nicely and I can feel the success of our family's growth. I'm falling more and more in Love with who she is becoming!
I kept cabbage leaves on my breast for about four days. I did have some left over placenta tincture from Amazing's birth and I took that the first week to help balance out my hormonal changes that I knew I would go through. It wasn't too bad, I got sad a few times simply because I knew it would be the last of our nursing experience together and holding her next to my body in full surrender everyday while she drank from me and I smelled her in, touched her body, stroked her hair, and kissed her hands was going to be really really missed! I enjoyed the moments of stopping and connecting. I try often to cuddle her and stop and hug and connect but she still doesn't just surrender into me and rub my chest for 20 minutes, like she did when she nursed. She's a kid on the go now!
|Our last time sharing this moment of nursing together!!|
So, we are all growing together and this was a great step we've taken.
Amazing Grace truly is my best friend, she's my buddy, we go everywhere together, even my yoga classes. I'm so grateful for this opportunity to help raise her into a magnificent and aware human being!
I loved breastfeeding my sweet little Amazing Grace Peek!
To our next chapter....