Those mountains I see in the background of this Utah Valley carry my soul and my backbone to this life. I find solitude, inspiration and strength when I scale across the rough terrain. On bike, foot, or even a pair of skiis. I long to breathe that dry air and feel the breeze on my face. The wilderness here is my temple and I feel so close to God when I visit it. But the pace of the valley people still makes me feel like I'm spinning out if control. I went jogging this morning and my mind raced to dark places of dissconnection and frustration. Luckily a nice yoga class at 3B yoga helps to take it all away as I drift off into the deep places of my body and release this tension and discontent. How do all these mothers give their children all that their children need physically and emotionally while moving at such a fast pace and having their hands in so many projects?? I can barely hit up a yoga class while giving my lil toddler all she needs and I do believe I'm giving her all she desires of me since she is in my arms every time she wants it.
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
A few weeks ago I met some really neat women. I was at a family farm called Lucky Ladds Farm with JJ and Mazi. Instantly, we gravitated to each other. There were five of them, all with their young slung around their waists in wraps, slings, and backpacks. I complimented them and they complemented me, we exchanged numbers, took pictures and I knew we would keep in touch. I've been in nashville two years and this is exactly the connection with a community that I have longed for.
The very next day I got an invite to a Red Tent Gathering. Not knowing what it was exactly, I still knew it was exactly what I needed right now. I invited my dear friend Amanda as we seem to be needed the same things in life, we were brought together by the universe and I love her so much.
The Red Tent Gathering was in the middle of the country, set up on a private farm named the Cooper Farm. We were one of the early arrivers and we were greeted by the host, Alex. Long sheets were drapped over rope making a complete circle, the grass was damp but there was a warm fire blazing in the center keeping us all close and comfortable in a tent like setting. 50 women showed up, few of us knowing each other, strangers to gather and release. We engaged in some good conversation before it began and I was feeling the the feminine energy begin to flow. It was such a simple process. Gather under the night sky surrounded by nature, use the natural elements to open and release what is unnecessary to carry any further. Write down what you desire to let go of, stand and share it in a safe environment, if tears come, let them, then burn the written words and blow out that candle forever. Completely nondenominational, open to all sources, only words, fire, and raw emotion.
It was so beautiful and just the beginning of many more to come. The circle was safe and filled with compassion for one another and everyone felt it. This is something only our fellow sisters can give to us women because we walk in the similar shoes and we resonate together as One.
Thanks to Alicia and Alex for your efforts, your healing energy and for creating this space for us all.