I've spent many nights lately, on the floor with only candlelight. As I sit in my favorite position...Lotus. I ask, I listen, I wait. I watch the flame flicker and suddenly it becomes still, like my mind for a moment. It comes to me with little surprise. Its my Soul, she's reconnecting again!! I wait longer and realize what I already know. Somehow, the things that make me tick, that keep me breathing are forgotten in this life of mine. I get so sidetracked and very often distracted from the things I am moving toward.
LOVE. Family. The Way Of A Natural Life.
It seems that I know where I need to be but I get lost in the memories of what once was. I was once again reminded that I am where I am suppose to be.
BE. This word of patience and stillness. So hard.
I wonder quickly to myself, as my mind must run its course of possibilities, Tennessee? The south? Away from my home? How is this my place? but it is and I know it. I have all the time available here for Amazing...she is my answer. I am to give her my energy, my attention, my time. I do, but my mind still reaches elsewhere for that part of me I once knew. The old Tarah, whom lived for herself. Amazing Grace will be what it takes to reconnect me to the deepest parts of me that even I couldn't access without her. The important parts that give my Soul her purpose, the purpose that I must live up to. I must stop thinking about myself, this is not my time. Is it really so difficult to not be selfish in life?I have this need and desire to fulfill my ego...grrr the ego!
This is the time for Amazing Grace Peek. She is an incredibly unique soul, born on the blue moon of August 31, in the magical year of 2012. The year where all the energies of the past built it up to give it enough attention to bring her here successfully...and it worked. She is here on Earth, and she chose to be with me!!
I am going to give her the attention she needs and put myself, once again, on hold. I believe that I will grow with her, together we will see the depths of our hearts and the nectar of our souls as they mature in arms, together as mother and daughter. I will be shown all I need by raising this little angel.
This is all for you Miss Amazing Grace.
Amazing you have helped me see what life is about, the simple joys of each day. You remind me of forgiveness and unconditional Love. You have chosen your father and me to grow with you and to walk this world holding your hand. I am forever humbled. Forever grateful. Looking into your eyes is like looking at Divine light, you carry the Grace of God little one. You melt my heart. Thank you, Thank you for giving me this opportunity to be a mother.
Be still my mind!